I was pouring my brains out over my textbook when Mom came in. She sat on my bed to discuss stuff with me again. Life. She wasn’t too happy with me lately, said I was keeping things from her that I shouldn’t be. All because of a stupid class. Organic chemistry. Why I failed, how did I fail, why didn’t I tell her before that I failed, how could I have failed, why didn’t I get a tutor if I knew I was going to fail.
I wasn’t going to medical school this upcoming year. She was real upset. She said a year is a long time to wait.
“Tina, do you know how long 12 months is?” she asked.
“What if I don’t even live to see next year? When will I see you as a doctor?”
She’d smack the ovaries right out of me if I talked back at her. She was in her lets-talk-business-because-you-are-making-me-very-upset-now-young-lady mood, and there was no stopping her.
Of course I wasn’t going to med school because of her. I wanted to go because I wanted to become a pediatrician. But I wanted to see her happy and getting in on the first try would make her real happy. I knew she had the fear that once I took a year off, I wouldn’t go back to school, but I knew I was going no matter what. She also thought I created this whole problem because I had to take orgo twice.
“What’s the point of pulling all-nighters if you’re not even going to pass?”
Jeez Mom, thanks. I tried, I mean I really honestly tried. I can’t be that dumb. Or can I?
I’m surprised I didn’t have dark clouds of acidic rain hovering over my head following me around for the past few days, after all the arguments I had with her. She was ruining my mood big time. All I wanted to do was drink my mocha and write a good story, but no, she had to constantly nag me, reminding me of how my best friend was oh-so-perfect.
Well, why don’t you go adopt her then?
I was beginning to develop “allergies” that week – teary eyes and a sniffling nose even though I had a perfect immune system. What else could I say to my friend when I just fought with Mom and was walking in to my research lab wanting to tear my temples out for being such a big disappointment?